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Hanjin

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 04:46:34 GMT

Attended Hanjin's concert yesterday, that is real nice. It's my first time meeting him. this guy is really talented, all the music is built firmly in his mind which he can jam with all his sudden ideas.
First impression is pretty bad to be honest... a fat, short and ugly man... who is he?! thanks god he is so ugly.... or else, he is not what he is now. Very considerate and sharing. He understand the stage is not just belong to the singer but all the people who are doing music, therefore, from time to time, he would give time for other musicians to have a solo in playing their instrument and ask us to give a big hand from time to time... even to a back stage boy who responsible to give him chair or mic. what an attitude. The whole concert as well, everyone of us are invited to involve in doing the music, by just a clap or whispering. Very confident and humorous. Mood and atmosphere are all in his control from the very beinging til the last min we grab our belongings and left. He asks us to sing with him, stand, grab our belongings, turn, and walk... bye....You can tell how charming he is.... infauated!

Successfully delivered

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 15:01:55 GMT

4th Sep, 2009. Our aircraft was successfully delivered to HK finally!!! It is glaring, gleeful and auspicious. Principal love the aircraft and happy for all the arrangements, we can disengage for a while then, half the battle we were now..
I do not know what's happened in PEK and SIN, but my boss seems very poor and work very hard over there... once she arrived HK, she gave me a big hug and said wanna cry... I am thinking, maybe not me who is suffering... she might suffering as well... And suddenly find that i have too many "lo so" recently, yet I never wish to become such a person... Maybe it is time for me to shut myself up and be more positive! I should rise above her problem, so as to bargain for a better pay. To be frank, i am fascinated in aviation industry, I like what i am doing and i always want to get rid all the stalemates i am facing to have the feeling of fulfilment.
That night we have a farewell party in island shangri-la hotel, the buffet is very bad and expensive... not much choices and the taste is so so la... Royal Garden hotel's "siu yea buffet" is much better which just around 1/2 of shangri-la's price...luckily it is treated by Nespresso...
The K gathering with AL and EW is fine, except the room which is very small... wakkaka. If more ppl join the gathering, it would have more fun. After i left Nespresso... there are so many ppl wanna left gum.. KS and CS was resigned.... Some of them finding job... while 1 of them confirmed will resign on Dec... I am very worry actually... especially to my beloved PL... I think SL should responsible for all the consequences, as she creates a competitive environment and disappointed so many people.

fed up

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 16:49:34 GMT

This is saturday... i was supposed having day off... but still.. i work til 5am n wake up at 9.....i am very anxious as it seems many things not yet confirmed... reg / de-reg of govt authority... inspection, painting, per-delivery check, labor protection, itinerary, uniform etc... i keep working non-stop the whole day... but finally knows my boss is in barbershop doing her hair!! what?!
I am totally fed up... what i am working so hard for... in which my salary hr rate might be just the same as a mcdonald staff... 24 hr on call... mon to sun...
But i will work for her still, in spite of my responsibility... just i might quit after this critical moment if situation remain unchange....

My new job

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 19:24:24 GMT

Working in my new job for almost a week. There are no training and even a briefing until now... Full intiative is needed, when she said company bank a/c is needed and working visa for staff have to be done, i would go straight ahead without any question... as i know she knows nth about that... tasks are given anytime she think of and request immediate respond. Everythings to her is Urgent! 1 min ago, ask to get task A done, 2 mins later said do not waste time on task A, and 3 mins later ask if task A is done... what?!
I was very mad and almost cried out yesterday... She suddenly ask me to help her make a aircraft insurance comparison at 3pm when i am still havent got my lunch.... 29 pages with thousand tiny words!! (I am not familiar with aircraft stuff, especially those maintenance issues... and actually that is her duty.. just she duno how to do, so shifted to me). Moreover, i have to get quotation, booking, preparation material for crews training... courier...banking... ceremony banquet follow-up...and her insurance comparison etc done in 3 hrs...as i have to go fitting with crews at 7pm tst.
Reached home not more than 15 mins... she called again ask if i have checked email, (i just glanced through my mobile while i was on the way home...) and scold me why booked a waiting ticket... ( but in fact i didnt book yet... the agent just showing me what flight i can choose...) n keep asking me the insurance comparison b4 my promised time line... does she know it really takes time? i just ask for 2 hrs more to get it done!! pissed off!!

Last Day

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 04:55:20 GMT

最後一日返NESPRESSO 啦~ 唔知係咪因為PL話之後會幫我攪FAREWELL, 所以仲未係好離愁別緒. 但最後一日返工都KEEP住遲到... SIGN! 本來諗住最後一日準時D, 但琴日整D禮物同寫情信攪到今早8:00幾(都仲未攪掂)... HUP左一陣起唔倒身... 結果要CALL 的士! HAHA... 不過大家好似對我O既電子相架冇乜反應... 睇都冇睇過... 其實我揀相揀O左好耐... 諗左好耐邊D相出得街... 邊D唔得... 希望佢O地唔會開都唔開, 一路將佢放埋一邊啦~~
最後二封情信, 係比我最愛的PL同AL. 由於唔想HEA寫所以留到最尾先寫...結果係... 冇時間寫..成日都係咁..激死! 好彩AL同EW過O黎接我放工, 所有埋數O野佢O地做, 我可以專心寫信! 但每次一接觸到PL...我就忍唔住... 一路寫一路眼濕濕.. 好想喊... 好彩由遞信到LAST DAY, 我都見唔倒佢.. 如果唔係我怕我真係會喊出O黎.. NESPRESSO陪我度過O左人生某幾個黑暗時候~ 係我冇人生目標, 對找工作豪冇方向O既時候, 佢請O左我... 係我屋企有事O既時候, 佢O地同我一齊渡過... 係咁安排我放假... 多到我走去同佢講... 我唔需要咁多假...然後我先知... 佢係怕我因家事唔開心...所以咁安排!! 我返學撞正EVENT...忙到顛O左, 佢都比我補鐘返學...(雖然之後副經理唔比我補...) 一切一切, 佢都係諗O左我O地先... 未見過一個好成咁O既經理!!
AL, 冇諗過會同佢FREN... 踩中晒所有黑我憎O既O野... 自大, 拜金主義, 只睇外在, 仲有死穴: 成日講我最憎O既喊濕笑話~ 低俗~ 點知同佢反而係最FREN O既一個. 同佢O既感情由一齊收夜, 佢成日同我分享佢O既感受, 內心世界, 價值觀, 感情生活等等開始.. 聽得多, 了解多O左, 發現同佢對於某D O野O既諗法好相似... 仲記得個EVENT最後一日同佢坐係BOOTH度講下大家O既人生觀同埋過去等等所有感觸O既事... 都好有CONNECTION... 或者我O地O既背景不多不少有D相似..(都係AIRLINE, 都係FINANCE). 從來同男仔一齊都有種好唔自然O既感覺... 亦極少會同男仔分享內心... 但同佢一齊又好舒服... 同埋完全唔介意分享內心O既所有, 唔介意係佢面前R腳呀, 噴飯呀咁!! WAKAKA~ 或者可能我一早知佢係GAYGAY, 真係當正O左佢係姊妹!! 然後有一日...朋友MOLALA問.. 如果佢唔係GAY.. 我會唔會考慮佢... WA!! 無諗過!! 所以停O左一陣子...真心咁諗... um... 可能真係會鐘意佢都唔定... 外表OK, 起碼整齊清潔...溝通倒... 得閒冇O野做又講笑話我聽... 跳舞我睇... 知我唔開心又會狂問, 關心我, TUM我開心... 我食O野輪盡跌到周圍都係... 佢又會一路話我, 一路幫我抺... 夜返屋企又會打個電話問候下(雖然得O個一次) 不過講開又講, 最加分係有次上佢家, 知個INTERIOR DESIGN係佢自己諗.. 即刻覺得佢好ARTISTIC呀! 好可惜... 佢只係一個"女仔"!! 好難有心跳O既感覺~~　不過又讓我反思... 點解異性戀者只會對異性有感覺... 又點解一個同性戀者只會對同性有感覺呢?? ANYWAY, 我諗我接受佢所有衰野, 同佢做好朋友, 主要原因係佢認. 認自大拜金. 好真, 同埋佢真係有拎個心出O黎對我, 同PL一樣, 係一個有情有義O既人!!

放O左工, 一齊食LAST SUPPER, 都估倒主要係串我同踩我... 但估唔到去得咁盡.. SIGH! 仲要話我走O左之後.. NESPRESSO可以少一個醜女... 走埋CS就清晒D UN眼O野... 真係好唔開心呀! 雖然從來冇覺得自己係一個大美人...但我諗身為一個女仔... 唔會鐘意比人話醜...或者拎出O黎比人比較.. 最慘係..成為最差O個個... 雖然好多時佢O地都只係好似講笑咁... 冇惡意... 但不多不少, 講得出O野都係REFLECT O左佢O地真正O既想法: 醜平蠢 +呆... 這個晚上... 除了真係有D TIRED... 其實都真係幾唔開心... 由細到大都好介意人O地O既眼光同評價... 所以要自己做每件事, 只要同其他人有關, 都會特別小心... 最後一有負面評價就會好唔開心... BUT ANYWAY, 會繼續學習唔好介意人O地點睇自己...

很充實的一天~

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 17:58:49 GMT

8月7 日, 是日放假~ 起身收倒新老細EMAIL, 叫我CONFIRM 中環個OFFICE.... 但我又覺得要揀同睇多幾間... 忍唔住約O左 AGENT 睇寫字樓位s... 之後同PH 去O左BRUNCH CLUB CWB 食飯! 好靚! 好開心! 以後約人食飯的首選!!
個CHOIR唱得好好聽, 好鐘意個4眼O靚仔! 勁得意呀! 仲有埋邊O個個緊張仔, MIT住條褲仔唱... 都好CUTE~ 係PH咁好先肯陪我睇埋D咁O既悶O野!! 記得小5定小6都係CHOIR, O個時仲係中環大會堂表演過~ 同MIT褲孩一樣好緊張~ 但唱完聽到大家O既掌聲就好有成功感~ 我諗佢O地聽倒我O地咁熱烈O既掌聲, 都好PROUD OF 自己~~今次呢個CHOIR係電影"歌聲伴我心"入面既小朋友, 來自法國聖馬可兒童合唱團, 有好多SUPRISE, MOLALA有埋Operetta~~ 好開心LOR!!! 仲有同HK兒童合唱團一齊JAM~ 好有文化交流O既感覺呀!! 第時有小朋友一定要比佢O地參加多D 呢D活動~ 又好玩, 又可以擴闊視野~ 幾好幾好~
最後再上798食甜品~ 突然傾起O靚模... 從女性解放主義, 到影響大眾對性的慾望...到社會價值認同等等... 非常之INTERESTING的議題... 如果唔係間RESTERANT打洋, 真係好想再傾多D~ 好鐘意同PH的和而不同!! 今日之最: 係MTR同街同佢嘈行邊條路近D, 扮發脾氣~ 好老公老婆O既對話~ HAHA~ 笑死O左!!
呢排都好開心, 睇O左好多好SHOW, 之前同AL睇O左"牧羊少年奇幻之旅"的MUSICAL, 又係SUPRISE... 變O左做現代HK版, 由於令成件事切身O左, 同埋佢只係抽O左幾個重要MSGE 講... 所以一開始就已經眼濕濕... 我真係唔明, 點解次次一講到D 理想夢想位... 我就極容易CRY... 但我都未有一個好明確O既夢想... 夠竟點解呢?

不是我的時間表...

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 17:11:08 GMT

曽幾何時我很討厭天主... 祂恨心地把我從高處掉進谷底. 看著我快要斷氣也不理會... 就單單只想要平淡生活... 祂也沒有應許. 在絕望中, 我開始不再祈求..... 朋友安慰說: 祂不會你求, 便立即給你. 故要在祂還沒給你之前好好裝備自己... 好讓你在時機成熟的一天, 不會手忙腳亂.
起初在NESPRESSO工作... 我有10個不願意... 老實說... 我真的覺得很丟臉... 除了最好的朋友外, 沒有正面告訴朋友真正的工作. 性質是一個問題... 工作環境亦是一個問題... 起初每天都工作得很不是味兒... 每天都很想RESIGN, 很不明白... 為何祂要安排我在這兒... 但朋友的二個點讓我選擇留下:
1. 要離開一份工作的最徍時候, 不是在遇到難題或難關, 而不能解決的時候, 這樣, 當遇到同一問題時, 你會跟以往一樣, 選擇性途避, 不會成長; 反之, 在現有工作空間, 對所以事都應乎得卓卓有餘, 而又沒有進步空間, 便是離開之時.
2. 有沒有想過上天派你到這個地方工作, 是有使命要你完成? 有沒有想過祂想你在這兒學到甚麼? (我真的有認真想這個問題, 而答案是: 或者天主要我用愛去改變這裡, 讓這兒小一點hatred... 或者祂要我學懂HUMBLE一點, 不要把自己看得太大) ...
慢慢慢慢, 我開始習慣自己的工作, 自己的身份, 不怕告訴別人我的工作, 不介意穿制服坐MTR, 反而很歡迎朋友來探我~ 起初跟某些同事一點也夾不來... 經理們時不時問我.... IFC同事有冇蝦我... 蝦不蝦... 很主觀吧.. 每次都會很官腔的說, 要時間磨合... 怕我的主觀答案影響經理對那些三八同事的看法... 隨著三八們的離去, 新同事的加入, 氣氛顯然不同~ 可能因為同事們都有一顆善良的心, 包容的心, 所以每天都工作都很開心, 笑過不停~ 雖然耐唔中會ONLINE看一看有沒有好工, 但其實都不想走... 尤其是知道阿姐由一開始聽了三八的閒言閒語, 不喜歡我... 到近期她MOLALA向經理們說, 覺得我幾好... 讓我覺得有一絲的成功感... 或許該說... 有被平反的感覺~
當一切都很美好, 我亦不求變的一刻... 突然收到以前公司的阿姐從意大利來電, 說她要開創一個私人飛機的事業, 想我當她的PA, 一起開荒~ 這令我有種遇到百樂的感覺... (為何遍遍選中我??) 在之前一連串的挫敗中.. 我自信心早已打沉了... 對於這個INVITE, 我第一樣想到的是... 我沒有這個能力幫她... 加上在這兒建立了感情, 不想離開, 本是不會TAKE 新OFFER的... 但神推鬼"OWN", 最後用了不足48小時, 決定轉新工, 遞信後不夠二星期便要返新工... 一切快得好像做夢般... 直至現在... 我也有種攪不清自己在做甚麼的感覺.
在CONFIRM會離開的一刻... 我不停的想... 是我的使命完成了...?? (基本上... 我沒有做過任何事去改變工作氣氛... 但又真的改變了... HAHA)... 祂有另一個使命要給我嗎?? 這個令人O咀的轉變... 不得不讓我相信... 冥冥中是有安排的...

好想養哥基呀!!

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 18:28:28 GMT

自從爸爸不在... 就好想養返隻狗... (其實如果可以接返寶寶返O黎就好啦~) 前排連續幾日, 雖然SUPER TIRED, 但都不時ONLINE 睇下狗.. 其實我鐘意大狗多D... 只不過屋企細 + 唔養得狗, 一定要養細狗. 睇O左好多, 我都係鐘意哥基~ 佢擁有金毛的金啡色~~ 又有雪橇的白色咀巴~~ 又成日笑口sai sai~~ 仲有又肥又矮, 行起路上O黎個pat pat lau下lau下咁~~ 超級得意呀!!! 死啦~~ 越睇越想養呀! 不過我睇D FORUM 話佢天生鐘意咬O野同埋會成日吠... 成日吠比人發現or complaint唔得O架喎... (之前寶寶就係成鬼日吠比對面complaint!) AIYA! 但真係好想好想好想養呀!!!! yesterday 係joey 家一齊online 睇狗同 choose 狗真係好開心呀~~ SIGH~ 不過都係只能遠觀.....

掉牙夢

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 17:51:17 GMT

不知為何老是發著掉了牙的夢!! 很恐怖!! 沒有牙齒...怎樣見人... 很樣衰吧~ 以前的掉牙夢都是沒有血的... 最近的都有血... 在夢中, 每一次我都會試著把牙塞回原處, 希望沒事, 回復正常... 可惜不是找不到原處, 就是放回也再掉下... 沒有一次成功拯救~ 一些解夢書說掉牙是喻意拒絕成長, 我也以為是... 直至朋友的一個小型心理輔導, 反思後我諗... 掉牙對於我來說, 該反射我失去重要的東西, 而我選擇拒絕接受... 以前我認為這是醜陋, 沒面見人的... 這次, 我覺得不知所措... 不知如何是好... um... 都幾貼切. 回想... 這一, 二年... 我真的失去了很多重要東西. 常常叫自己要正面一點... 安慰自己說: 在失去的同時, 我得到了很多, 不要數自己失去甚麼, 要為所能到的感恩... 但不論多正面也好, 不論失去的同時得到了多少也好, 失去了就是失去了, 不會因為得到了B, 而A就沒失去過. 我想我用錯方法.... 我該數清數楚, 我失去了多少, 然後一一接受, instead of just putting them into my hidden track.
其實09年... 我的要求都很簡單..只是平平淡淡的過... 但結果也是風急浪高... 剛康復不久, 又來重挫... 真的很累! 希望這是最後一浪, 真的雨過天晴吧... 再來... 我怕會被淹死! 講開又講, 前陣子都發O左另外一個夢, 就係好累好累的時候, 突然出現一條肥臂比我"AI"喎~~ WA! 軟綿綿好舒服O架!!! 勁想"AI"住唔走... 點知AI唔夠2秒... 就醒O左LA!! 激氣!! 我諗我真係好需要一個長假期, 休息休息~

Bye Bye

Thu, 14 May 2009 05:26:33 GMT

Bye Bye-Mariah Carey
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Ya best friend ya baby
Ya man or ya lady
Put ya hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas daddys sisters brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift ya head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face
Never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
Wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world
To see your face (bye)
And be right here next to you (bye)
But it's like you're gone too soon (bye)
Now the hardest thing to do
Is say bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye
And you never got a chance
To see how good I done
And you never got to see me
Back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could spend
The holidays together
I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact You're gone forever

Never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I
Wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world
To see your face (bye)
And be right here next to you (bye)
But it's like you're gone too soon (bye)
Now the hardest thing to do
Is say bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye bye bye bye bye
Bye bye